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"ALL MY FRIENDS ARE SAD & BRIGHT"
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"ALL MY FRIENDS ARE SAD & BRIGHT"

by Cameron Awkward-Rich

Two poems today, dear friends! Both by Cameron Awkward-Rich. One read by me and one that you get to hear in the poet’s own voice. Sending you love, Hope


ALL MY FRIENDS ARE SAD & BRIGHT
by Cameron Awkward-Rich

I think door & there is. Open & here’s a room
where everything you’ve lost is washed ashore.
We’ve seen the news. We know the story.
How even our bodies hurt us sometimes
so much. Room of broken mirrors. Room of salt.
Room of marigolds & it’s your party, baby
here’s a crown, here’s a gown & no man
just around the corner, all your eyes on you.
I think gunflower & here’s a field. Here’s a room
where every bullet planted blooms. Boy with flower.
Boy with metal rose. What’s done is done. What fire
fords you. I was a child once. Anything could be
my kingdom, all I had to do was say -
Here’s a room of water & gold & nothing else.
A room in which a man takes back his blood.
Good-bye blood. Good-bye stars. Good-bye dead light
troubling the dance your body does all by itself.
I was by myself once, beside myself, breath
fogging up a window & what’s on the other side? 
Only everything you wanted & here’s a room 
of everything you wanted. Think peppermint & myrrh. 
Think loved & you don’t even have to die.

CENTO BETWEEN THE ENDING AND THE END
 by Cameron Awkward-Rich

Sometimes you don’t die

when you’re supposed to

& now I have a choice

repair a world or build

a new one inside my body

a white door opens

into a place queerly brimming

gold light so velvet-gold

it is like the world

hasn’t happened

when I call out

all my friends are there

everyone we love

is still alive gathered

at the lakeside

like constellations

my honeyed kin

honeyed light

beneath the sky

a garden blue stalks

white buds the moon’s

marble glow the fire

distant & flickering

the body whole bright-

winged brimming

with the hours

of the day beautiful

nameless planet. Oh

friends, my friends—

bloom how you must, wild

until we are free.

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